Morning Pages (Again)

I started writing morning pages again this morning after a five year hiatus.

I didn’t want to do them. Do I feel I’m a blocked artist? Not necessarily, but I feel like I am a very frustrated one.

The morning pages, first day back, revealed that I want to be free of self-negativity.

I want to be free of self-negativity.

It’s holding me back from freedom in art and in life and in finances.

I want to be free of negativity in general, self-negativity and self-criticism specifically.

“Don’t be so hard on yourself’.

The Pain of Art

Art is personal.

Art is private.

Art is pain.

Art is intensely personal, private and painful.

Art is putting yourself out there.

When an artist, crafter, artist-in-residence, dabbler, artist wanna-be shares something with you, they are sharing their heart.

They are sharing something that was born deep within them and has only now come to the surface.

Since art is deeply personal, private and painful, it is hard to share.

Even if the art is something that they did in five minutes or less, or took hours upon hours to do, it is still a reflection of their heart and something they care about.

Sharing art is a vulnerable action for the artist or wanna-be artist.

Art hurts.

So, when an artist friend shares something with you, go lightly.

Tread carefully.

Be gentle.

That piece that they shared with you is part of their heart and they are trusting you with a part of themselves.

There is room for gentle commentary, and if the friend seems open for more, and depending on how well you know the person, you may be able to give more, not-quite-as-gentle feedback. This is one area where you need the Holy Spirit to guide you.

But always keep in mind, the friend is trusting you, sharing a part of themselves with you, and that is not easy for an artist, no matter how famous, no matter how novice.

Art is, in all forms and in all ways, personal, private and painful.

Boiling Point & Art & Stuff

So. Not really sure where to start. I’m starting where I started my last blog, with Ruministics, because I felt I had things I needed to share. Things that were bubbling inside of me, at boiling point, and they needed to get out. My Ruministics blog hasn’t really gone anywhere. Ruministics is different than Land of my Sojourn. So, separate blog, and the Ruministics blog is business only and taking a hiatius.

So I’m starting again because there are things in me that need to be shared. Except that this blog is really only for me. For me. I don’t really even know what to say, except I’m starting this, and who knows where it will go. It will be public, but no one will really care about it, and I’m ok with that. I don’t know if I will ever share it on FB…maybe in a year, or two or three or never. And I’m ok with that. I started a Land of My Sojourn IG site and put it Private after being public. This blog is just ME. It’s not my business, it’s not anything specific, it’s just ME. I like art. I want to share my art with others. I’d love to sell my art, and in a way, I am, but really, this is just ME…exploring, being, thinking, unedited…because I’m not editing any of this…or maybe I will…it’s just ME, Hannah Hon, being myself and saying whatever the heck I want to that’s NOT on a SM platform. My public personal blog. If you read and you like it, good for you. Not trying to impress, just trying to be. Of course, that may change, but for now, in Dec of 2019, this is what it is.

I really want to explore collaging, and I did start! I really want to do gel printing and put that in my collaging. In my art.

I love making books and want to make my gel printing/collage making into my book art.

I’m in the middle of writing two books. Or maybe it’s just one book. I haven’t figured that out yet. Inspired by L’Engle, Night Circus, the Bible, poetry (some), McKinley, Tolkien (some), Lewis (A lot)…could I write a fantasty story? Me, ha, who is so practical it’s ridiculous.

I also really want to expand my real business into something more…off shoots, blends, aromatherapy for specific years, perfume blends for different countries…I’m just spouting ideas.

I told my husband yesterday that I want to WORK on my projects, not just ORGANIZE them. Because I’m an organizer. And yet, I organize things and don’t work on my projects and then things get lost in the shuffle and I don’t know where I put all my ideas on little bits of paper that are scattered about (Except they are organizied, remember?), so why don’t I just WORK on my projects and get them finished then I wouldn’t have little bits of ideas all scattered about…because really they’re all the same ideas, just written out differently. If I’ve wanted to write a book for years, then my goodness, just WRITE the thing. If I started this book project years ago (An illustrated book, diff than my fantasty book) just WORK on it and FINISH it and then it’s done then I can move on to the next bit of paper that has the idea I’ve been wanting to do for years…

I do work on my projects. Don’t get me wrong. I work a lot. Sometimes I get bored easily with them. It’s not that I don’t like the projects, I just get bored and then move on to something else. A year or two ago someone said to me, “You artist types move on too easily. You could make a million dollars making soap if you just stick with it”. And it’s true. But we artist types, so it seems, have to have lots of projects going at once. Yes, soap, main income, main business, but there are things on the side, our passion projects if you will, that seem way more important than making soap or salves. Which is probably why I’m starting a blog instead of making a salve… 🙂 Is a blog a passion project? Not specifically, but if Land of My Sojourn is already on IG and Etsy, then in a way this ties in to something.

I don’t really want to sell things on Etsy, so I might decide to close my shop, which currently has nothing in it. It was supposed to be a place where I could sell my books, but really, I think I’m jumping the gun on it and things aren’t ready yet. When will they be ready? I’ve no idea. And yeah, I’ve got a few books to sell, nice ones…but feel I need to build my skill more. I’ve started building, but things aren’t coming together yet and product photography SUCKS. I hate it. It’s hard for me and if you sell online, man, you HAVE to have good photography. So maybe that is one piece of the puzzle that I’m still working on. I made (most of) a light box, but somehow my stuff doesn’t look good in there…the lighting is all wrong. Photography is all about the lighting and mine just ins’t cutting it; at least with the books. I can get by with my biz products well enough, but even they need some help.

Anywho…I probably should go make a batch of salve. Have a show tomorrow and only one GJ SV left, so have to make some more. Who knows when I’ll jump back on here again. When I feel like binge writing, boiling point, and need to get some ‘stuff’ out. I know my husband is tired of hearing it. *wink, wink*

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